Steven Curtis Chapman's CD "Beauty Will Rise" has several songs that wreck my heart - in a good way. Even in the deepest depth of pain, God is faithful, we can trust Him and Spring is Coming.
You know how you have to choose to forgive even if you don't feel like forgiving yet? Then when you choose to forgive, the feeling begins to follow. That same action applies to other emotions too. When you choose to speak trust and faith, you are choosing to believe in not just what you know but in who He is and He is faithful. I know in my flesh that things aren't what they could be and not what I think they should be BUT when I choose to believe Him, I begin to experience what it is to trust. Even when I don't see the end, I'll just have to wait, knowing God is in control because spring is coming. (Okay, I just had a little fun thrown in w/ my melancholy because I worked several of the song titles into this paragraph. This is how I know I'm going to be okay - a little silly humor begins to rise up through the tears.)
I don't even wanna breathe right now
All I wanna do is close my eyes
But I don't wanna open them again
Until I'm standing on the other side
I don't even wanna be right now
I don't wanna think another thought
And I don't wanna feel this pain I feel
And right now, pain is all I've got
It feels like it's all I've got, but I know it's not
No, I know You're all I've got
And I will trust You, I'll trust You
Trust You, God, I will
Even when I don't understand, even then I will say again
You are my God, and I will trust You
God, I'm longing for the day to come
When this cloudy glass I'm looking through
Is shattered in a million pieces
And finally I can just see You
God, You know I believe it's true
I know I will see You
But until the day I do
I will trust You, trust You
Trust You, God, I will
Even when I don't understand
Even then I will say again
You are my God, and I'll trust You
And with every breath I take
And for every day that breaks
I will trust You
I will trust You
And when nothing is making sense
Even then I will say again
God, I trust You
I will trust You
I know Your heart is good
I know Your love is strong
And I know Your plans for me
Are much better than my own
So I will trust You, trust You
I trust You, God, I do
Even when I can't see the end
And I will trust You
I will trust You, I will
Even when I don't understand
Even then I will say again
I will trust You, I will trust You, I will
I know Your heart is good,
Your love is strong,
Your plans for me are better than my own
Yeah, Your heart is good
Your love is strong
Your plans for me are better than my own
And I trust You
You are my God
And I will trust You
