No Difference

Nothing to say that makes a difference.

Not all is Lost

Not because I think anyone out there in blog world has been worried about the photo album I couldn't find, or looking for my mislocated MP3 cord or has been concerned for my inability to 'be still' but here's the latest news. The photo album appeared in the very spot I had looked previously. I opened an email from Amazon and there were accessories for MP3s that included exactly what I needed (on order to be delivered soon!) and for the quiet mind, well, there's still a lot of chaos in that small space but He is bringing order to it more each day and I know He is with me. I don't know what He will do with me but that's okay. I'm busy untying the knot in my tail from all the whirling and twirling I get myself into by not keeping my focus on Him. "He who is in me is bigger than he who is in the world!" Amen.

Stop. I want off.

I can't find the cord that plugs my MP3 player into the computer to charge it much less add new music to it. I have it (MP3) here by me to remind me that I would like to listen to the music captured within its tiny little black frame but NOOOOO, I can't find the cord that would allow me to do that.

I can't find my favorite Christmas present from last year. It is the album of pictures my children had taken including ones where they are wearing their Murphy Steak House t-shirts.

I can't find - or at least not for very long - the quiet place in my head that allows silence to speak. You know God often only talks in a whisper so you have to have some quiet to hear Him.

I can't like the phrase "I can't" so I will have to re-word the above 3 paragraphs.

I have yet to find the missing cord for my MP3 player. I'm looking for my favorite album. And I'm going into my closet to wait upon the quiet.

Now you have a wonderful day whatever that will look like for you. :)

That's not enough

I know my Savior and am assured of my salvation. That's not enough.
I'm reading His Word and treasure the instructions & promises. That's not enough.
I spend time with Him in prayer. That's not enough.
I want all of Him and for Him to have all of me.
That means laying down my agenda, my identity, my comfort.
That means embracing the gifts He desires to impart to me.
That means seeking Him with expectation.
To expect His presence.
And when it happens, that will be enough.
Until then I will wait in prayer and expectation.

Isaiah 64:1 Oh, that you would rend the heavens and come down,
that the mountains would tremble before you?

Okay, I came back to edit this post because I didn't want anyone to think I wasn't truly satisfied with salvation, His Word and my prayer life. It is simply that I want more. And I want to take that "more" to pour out onto others. I heard a man say he wanted the power of the Holy Spirit to 'leak' out of him onto others. {Allow me to digress a moment - as a women in the second half of life who has borne several children, I don't like the term 'leak' so I'm open to other suggestions.}

Pa Kettle: [filling in for the preacher] I don't know how to preach a sermon, I can't quote Scriptures, although I know all the words, I wouldn't know how to put them together, but I can speak from my heart. I can say how thankful I am that I have Ma and the kids, I'm thankful for the food we get nd the clothes we wear. A lot of folks are always asking God for something instead of being thankful for what they got. I figure if He wants you to have it, it'll come to you because you deserve it. He gave us the mountains, the trees, the water and the fertile land. Gave men the ability to make things and grow things. He put gold and silver, coal and oil under the ground, all man has to do is dig them up. Why I figure that He kind of wants you to help yourself a little, He don't want to do it all. If I found out right now there was oil under my land, would I be lazy? No sir, right away I'd get Geoduck and Crowbar to start digging an oil well. The whole world could be a better place to live in if everybody would do like I do. Every morning when I wake up I say "I thank you God, for letting me live to see another day" and at night when I go to lseep I say "Dear God, please let me live to see another tomorrow so I can prove to You that I can be a better man than I have been today." Amen.

The following was read at a family member's funeral recently. It is a quote from an Englishman, Dr. Alan Redpath, who was once an instructor for a distance cousin of mine at the Capenwray Bible School of England.

I had requested this quote from my cousin and she sent it today. I needed it today! God is good in so many ways:).

There is nothing—absolutely no circumstance, no trouble, no testing that can ever touch me until, first of all, it has gone past God and past Christ right through to me. If it has come that far, it has come with a great purpose which I may not understand at the moment. But as I refuse to become panicky, as I lift up my eyes to Him, and I accept it as coming from the throne of God for some great purpose of blessing to my own heart, no sorrow will ever disturb me, no trial will ever disarm me, no circumstance will cause me to fret, and I shall rest in the joy of what my Lord is. That is the rest of victory.